I am back from an amazing weekend at the Amrit Yoga Institute. It was everything I hoped it would be and possibly a little more. I’m not sure how much of it I will share. I made a beautiful (in my eyes) painting and an amazing “goddess” sculpture. I do want to write about and share a picture of the sculpture at some point when I get the photos taken and downloaded. I may keep the painting just for myself this time and only share it with those who happen to come into my bedroom to sneak a peek of it hanging on the wall. I did want to share an activity we did today because it might be helpful, or at least entertaining.
We were told to pick an animal to represent our ego. Once we had the animal we were to name it. The first animal that popped into my head was my dachshund, Lilly. I resisted this at first but nothing else came to me. I thought of Lilly’s neediness, the way she growls a little when she wants to be petted and barks constantly at your feet when you are looking out the window in the hopes that you will lift her up and let her see too. But Lilly is tough, she sticks up for herself when her brother, Oscar, is bugging her. She has a huge voice for her little body and could rally a whole stadium full of doggies. Lilly didn’t exactly fit my ego. But I decided the dachshund was a good representative. I thought of how we keep our dogs crated when we are away or sleeping. They put up a fuss when we close the crate door, but we know if we left them unattended and gave them free reign of the house they would piss on everything and get into all sorts of mischief. Yep, that sounded a lot like an ego…
Next was the name. Charlie popped into my head. When I was a kid on occasion we’d go to Charlie’s Here, which was a convenient store up the street. We’d get candy and sodas to carry along on an outing. I’d usually wolf my treats down, never stopping to savor them. I was always left wanting more and wishing I’d taken the time to enjoy what I had.
So there I had it. My ego is a Dachshund named Charlie.
We were then asked to think of a question we have about our life. My question was “What should I focus on in my life right now?” We were told to close our eyes and inwardly ask our animal. I was a little unsure on this one, but I did as I was told and to my surprise I received an answer.
Charlie said as he eagerly hopped around: “Make them love you, make them love you, make them love you.” And with that I was shown a few of the ways I could do more or change to make the people around me love me more. Yep, sounds about right.
We were then told to close our eyes and ask the same question, only this time direct it to Spirit. I closed my eyes and did as I was told. Spirit immediately said:
And with that the floodgates opened and tears poured from my eyes. It was true. I can’t make anyone else love me or love me more, all I can do is love myself and from there it will grow in my life and in the lives of those around me.