Today I met with my “spiritual mommy.” Usually we get together and share the miracles in our lives and touch briefly on our struggles. We acknowledge easily how God is working in and through us. That is what usually happens.
Today I sat on the bench next to Mildred and cried. The tears weren’t about my life but about the world, my society, my nation. I cried because I’m having a really difficult time seeing God these days. The country and way of life I was raised to love and strive for has been swallowed by greed. Opportunities are falling away. There seems to be no guarantee for anyone that you will consistently throughout your life have your BASIC needs easily met. Mega-Millionaires and Billionaires are getting preferential treatment while support for disabled Americans (including war veterans) is being snatched out from beneath them. The Republican party has managed to attach the moral issue of abortion to the budget so that they can screw over the entire country (well, except for the millionaires and billionaires) and get away with it. They are manipulating their constituents in the name of Greed, but conveniently renaming it GOD.
So I am having trouble finding the Christ within these political leaders as well as their constituents. My own father, a retired government worker at a unionized job and father of three middle-class daughters, is a proud Tea Party Republican even though their actions will no doubt lesson the probability of his daughters and granddaughters having comfortable, healthy lives in America. When I see his pride in the Republican party I take it as a slap in the face. Unfortunately it causes me to believe that my father and his fellow party members care about no one but themselves, not even their own children and grandchildren.
We are at a moral precipice in this country and I’m starting to wonder where the real God is. I know there are lots of people pounding on their bibles to fight abortion and gay rights, but so few seem interested in fighting so strongly for the rights of the poor and the weak. When I wrote about being liberal months ago a few of my Republican friends showed up to assure me that they weren’t greedy and just wanted the freedom of choice of who they donate their money too. It sounded good in writing, but I’m not sure how it works. How does a weak, poor, and in essence powerless segment of society manage to “market” themselves to the sympathies of those charitable Republicans? They can’t! Which is why we CAN NOT in good conscience cut social programs that provide basic needs to these voiceless masses.
I am watching all of this unfold and I will tell you that I see so much evil in a political party that shrouds itself in Christianity. I see followers of Jesus betraying his very teachings. I find myself terrified of the possible pain that will be inflicted on the people of this “great” nation at the hands of these Christian Republicans. And at the end of it all it makes me doubt the existence of God and I find myself praying for signs that he/she/it is still in control here! Unfortunately right now the only winners I see are the folks who have thrown ethics, morals, compassion, and brotherly love out the window.