Alright, so lately I’ve been really really angry about everything going on in American politics. I decided to be vocal about it and now I can’t seem to shut up. I’m pretty sure there are people on my Facebook list ready to unfriend me at any moment. But I am just soooo pissed! I used to be a school teacher and am the daughter of a retired postal worker. My children learn through school, community, and TV shows that teachers, firefighters, and policemen are valuable assets and noble positions to aspire to. The people holding these positions are under attack and they aren’t even asking for more…just to maintain what they already have.
But all of that aside, I’m just consumed by anger right now. I’ve spent four years of my life learning about the real nature of God. I’ve returned to reading Joel S. Goldsmith because I really need something to pull me out of this madness. He talks a lot about how if you are in communion with God then everything falls into place. If you trust, God will provide. He says that you should give and give some more because that is the bread you throw out onto the waters and it will return to you for sure. I read this and I try to believe it. I try to remind myself that what I think is reality is just an illusion. God is everywhere and in everything. BUT, reading this and saying this is not healing my anger. It is not making me stop worrying and hurting for the people who are facing pay cuts that may create a situation in which they can no longer stay in their homes. It doesn’t keep me from wondering what kind of education my daughters will get in public schools if the classes are too big with teachers even more stressed out about money. It is not making me stop wanting to scream at these GOP governor’s who think the answer to their budget crisis is to lay off and give pay cuts to government workers while providing tax cuts and other incentives to big corporations.
In the spiritual world I just have to wonder what this means. There is one side that I’m sure would argue that I should let go of my anger and forgive these politicians. There is another side who would say I should feel my anger and communicate those feelings. And where does apathy play in all of this? If I say well I’m not a teacher in Columbus, Ohio anymore so this just isn’t my stuff, isn’t that basically the same as posting an anti-union slogan on my FB wall? Or is my own personal peace of mind really more important than getting the word out about the disservice being done to the people we rely on so much in our community?
I really feel like I’m in the midst of a real spiritual conundrum. I don’t know what the right thing to do and feel is. I don’t know how to stop being mad. I don’t know how to use the anger in a productive way. So for my friends and readers who are further along on the spiritual path…please tell me what you think.