Since the new year started, I have found myself thinking a lot about dreams and creating the life I want. I’m always thinking about life purpose and I’ve entertained various ideas over the last year. For a while I thought about Ministry and researched the steps to becoming a Unity Minister. What I realized is that particular path would require me to sacrifice too much of the time and energy I give to my family. I also, of course, thought about returning to teaching. I love the time I’m with the kids at church so much so that for a period of time I wondered if I was meant to return to my old career. I thought about going to school for a degree in Womens Studies, so that I could do something to help women’s causes. In the end though, all I really want to do is write.
I’ve tried three times to get books published. I sought representation for Healing Night, The Circle Home, and a book featuring the click stories from this blog. With Healing Night I at least got a partial manuscript request and some very kind remarks from a few agents, but the others got nothing. It’s been hard to write a new novel after that because you put so much of your heart, soul, and time into something you just want to see it reach completion.
My dream now is to complete this book I’m working on and the two that will follow it. I can’t stop writing and I can’t picture myself in any other career right now. I have faith in myself with this although I’m totally freaked out to admit that. I don’t want to come across as over-confident or worse-delusional. I am so in love with this story and these characters. I want everyone to know them as I do. It’s a story about soul connections, human nature, and transcending time. It’s a story of a girl who gains wisdom she never imagined and becomes the hero of her own experience, while making the friendship of a lifetime!
This week I met with my minister for breakfast. She’s been a part of my writing journey from the very beginning. I met with her after finishing Healing Night and expressed my desire to be a published author. She said something so powerful to me this week and I will always remind myself of it in moments of doubt. She said, “You’re journey to becoming a published author reminds me of my journey to motherhood. I always knew that I was meant to be a mother and despite all the obstacles that came my way, I still knew it was going to happen and it did. It didn’t happen the normal way or how I expected, but it happened. You’ve wanted this writing thing for a long time and I am confident it will happen for you. It may not be how you expect or imagine, but it will happen.”
I am here and now, publicly setting my intention to get this book series finished and published. I know it can be done!