Change Measured By Beer

I was at a party last weekend digging through the cooler.  The host noticed and asked me what I was looking for.  I pulled out a Miller Lite and unenthusiastically said “This will be OK.”  He quickly responded by doing a little uncovering until he found the Fat Tires that were also in the cooler.  My “this will be OK” turned into a “Yippee” as I made the exchange.

In college I drank a lot of beer without actually liking it.  It was a means to an end.  Once enough were consumed it turned dull, quiet Leslee into a fun girl.  Over time I acquired a taste for it.   But ultimately my relationship with beer was all about the buzz.  It was not to feed my senses but rather to dull them.  It was that thing I did to pass the time until conditions arrived in which being the real me all the time (not just with my closest friends) felt right.

Today I sent Mark a grocery list.  On it I wrote “beer” followed by a happy face.  He will not come home with a six pack of Miller Lite like he would have years ago.  He’ll bring home something rich, dark and delicious.  After the girls are in bed and a movie is in the DVD player I will drink a beer or two.  Actually I won’t drink it, I will savor it.  In recent years Beer has become the new chocolate for me.  I like all different kinds, but dark is my favorite.  I know that it isn’t a “healthy food” so I indulge in it in moderation.  I now understand what it is to be a “beer snob” (although I’ve been told we’re not supposed to call ourselves that).  I laugh thinking back to the me who sat in the Taproom and ordered a Miller Lite.  What a waste…

So why, you may ask, am I writing about beer?  Well I think it is a good metaphor for my current lease on life.  There was a time when I kept the vision of my life pretty simple.  I believed I was very limited.  I didn’t veer very far from the norm.  I didn’t consider myself to be creative and I lived each moment with some far off end goal in mind.  “I’ll enjoy life when I get XY or Z…”  The thing is eventually I reached those goals.  I’m a happily married, mother of two living in the perfect town.  Now that I’m here I have to branch out a bit.  I’ve added new flavors and become more creative.  I’m focused on savoring the moment, planting the seeds for dreams but trying to relax and give them space to grow.


5 thoughts on “Change Measured By Beer

  1. Alisha June 26, 2010 / 3:49 pm

    Ooooo, kindred spirits are we 🙂 I love Fat Tire. In my most recent beer runs for the husband, I have thought about buying myself my own little 6-pack…my very own little bit of luxury. I just may put it on the list this week 🙂

  2. rageomatic June 28, 2010 / 1:35 am

    One, I love Fat Tire.
    Two, I understand. I live the first 25 years of my life as if I was at dress rehearsal. One day it just hit me…this is it…the big show, a single performance, and when the curtain closes…its over for good. I never looked back.

    One of these days (ie, sometime in the next 20 years) I’m going to take a road trip and meet all my favorite bloggers face to face. We should have a Dunkle (a german beer which is everything wonderful about a chocolate malt, but in a beer ) together and trade tips about squeezing the Life out of life like wet sponge.

    • lesleehorner June 29, 2010 / 8:07 pm

      I would love to have a beer with you someday! If your family ever plans a trip to Disney World (don’t know if that is on your radar at all) you have to let me know. We go there often!

  3. julian July 11, 2010 / 12:45 am

    Ah yes… the alchemy of the four ingredients: water, yeast, barley and hops.
    “Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy.”
    Benjamin Franklin

    My favorite beers these days are: Hazelnut Brown Ale by the Rogue Brewery and Brown Ale by the Real Ale Brewery in Blanco, Tx

    Should I ever find myself getting out your way I would love to have a scratch that… “savor” a beer with you.

    • lesleehorner July 11, 2010 / 7:53 am

      Great quote! And I’m so glad to see you here! It would be awesome to hang out and have a beer sometime.

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