I got back from vacation today and checked my email. I have a great cyber-friend who challenges me from time to time. Being the kind and respectful person that he is he never does it in a comment on the blog. He had read yesterday’s Sunday quote from Notes from the Universe and just didn’t get it. He expressed that the quote sounded like blind acceptance without any logic behind it.
I read back over that quote and sent an email back to him regarding what it meant to me. I wanted to talk about it a little more here though.
I titled this post “Faith” because that is basically what it comes down to. I’d say some people get put off by that word because they equate it with religion. But the truth is we all have faith in a lot of stuff throughout our days. We get in our cars to go to work in the mornings and we have faith that they will start and carry us safely to our destinations. We have faith when we get our paychecks that we will cash them and they won’t bounce. We have faith that our children will be safe when they are at school. If we didn’t put our trust and faith in some things outside of ourselves we would probably go insane. If we applied logic to every step we were about to make and thought intellectually about all the various ways that things could go right or wrong we’d probably be unable to actually take action on anything.
When things are bad we have to believe they’ll eventually get better. I’d say most suicide cases happen because the person simply can’t step out and trust that their conditions will improve. Change is inevitable. Nothing is fixed. Last week when I found that quote, I was having a particularly insecure day. I was thinking about losses in the past and worrying they might happen in the future. I was thinking logically. Isn’t it logical that if one person I love leaves forever that another one might? The effect of those thoughts was that by the end of the day I was curled up on my bedroom floor sobbing. I’d let my monkey mind’s chatter trump my faith.
I do understand why my friend would have a hard time swallowing the whole “forget logic” idea. For me the quote meant to stop over thinking things. But I don’t think we should leave behind our common sense and intuition. I think of my intuition and common sense as the navigation system for my faith (if that makes sense). I trust that they will guide me and keep me out of trouble. If someone calls me and offers me a “free” vacation my intuition radar goes off. There’s no way in Hell I’m getting something for nothing and I’m not willing to sit through a sales pitch. It’s usually then that I use my common sense and hang up the phone.
I’m not going to re-post the quote, but to me it was just about having faith that even though I don’t see exactly how things fit together now that doesn’t mean they don’t fit together. I do think that I am a “Being of Light” or expression of love. I might not feel that way every day and especially not when I’m crying on my bedroom floor. But it gives me peace and comfort to know that I can, have, or will make a positive difference in this world regardless of how small. Every little bit counts.